Life can be so boring.

She wrote me an email it made me cry.
We use to be best friends but it ended because of a lie.
I just wanted to be happy but not everyone can be.
I just wanted to be loved, but nobody loves me.
You said i was beautiful and now I'm not?
You said you'd always love me so why'd you stop?
I hate this empty broken home.
God please tell me why i have to be alone?
Do i deserve this that i have?
Why do you hurt me so bad?
I just wish my life would go back to the way it use to be.
But even then i was never really happy.
I cant even fake a smile.
It's been gone for such awhile.
I'm tired of crying and wanting to just sit down and die.
I'm wanting someone to love me.
I'm praying for someone to hug me
I wish i could drop this knife
I never asked for this screwed up life.
If good people deserve such bad.
This is the worst I've ever had.
I don't even wanna wake up another morning.
Life can be so boring.